Joey Essex has revealed the emotional torment caused by his mother's suicide on Celebrity SAS: Who Dares Wins.
The 29-year-old opened up about the traumatic incident in last night's episode of the Channel 4 show, which puts celebrities through the notoriously tough admission procedure for the SAS.
Having been pulled aside for a grilling by officers, the former TOWIE star admitted: "I believe I am tough inside. Growing up wasn't easy. I had to deal with a lot of shit. My mum committed suicide when I was 10 which was difficult.
"It hardened me up a little bit. I can't explain it. It's made me tougher inside. I only sort of started being able to talk about it openly, saying the word mum, three or four years ago.
"I know my mum loved me. But it has given me trust issues. One day she was there, one day she was gone."
Celebrity SAS: Who Dares Wins continues next Monday at 9pm on Channel 4.
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